After dealing with an emergency medical issue (Hashimoto's, thyroid disease) I am back on track thanks to my dear friend Tim who in 2012 I nicknamed "Aramis" in past blogs because he looked like actor Santiago Cabrera who played Aramis in BBC's The Musketeers. My friend's real name is Tim. Thanks to Tim I was able to go to Urgent Care and have my enlarged thyroid cared for.
"You need to relax" doctors tell me. Yes, yes, I know. Doctors have been telling me to "relax" since 2021 following my stroke which is coming up on its fourth-year anniversary. I have survived four years. The average lifespan following a stroke is 5-10 years they say. At least I'm past the weekly check mark. In the beginning doctors were literally monitoring my survival on weekly terms. February 26th will be four years.
Thanks to Tim I was able to go into Urgent Care. It's a weird thing strangling on yourself. Thyroid gland. The docs upped my hormone dosage. After this if my thyroid won't behave its surgery. They take a portion of my thyroid I believe. They insert a breathing tube and remove a part of my thyroid through an incision on my throat.
I need more tea.
Good morning! (Cheery start, eh!) It's my lot in life to educate.
Please forgive the grammatical errors.
Being 56 years old is the most challenging thing I've done so far.
Yesterday was challenging. A side-effect of a stroke and Hashimoto's is loss of brain function. Yesterday I had a moment of "brain fog" where I was unsure what I was doing at that moment. I was at the store. I was trying to find some large plastic tubs I could turn into an outdoor shelter for the cats and I when I couldn't find any, I suddenly didn't know what to do next. I panicked. I was all, "How do I get out of this store! Buy something and leave." That's how my brain processed that situation. So bought groceries and left. That's why I play computer games every day to stimulate my brain. It would be so easy for me to become a drooling mess and just give up, but I only have myself. There's only me. I care for the cats because it helps my heart but let's face it, they would make terrible nurses. One cat is more skittish than I am. Everything in my body moves too fast: my blood pressure, my thyroid, my heart rate, thus I take prescriptions to slow everything down in addition to caring for the kitties. Caring for the innocent soothes me. Calms me. Without them I would literally explode, I think.
We humans have completely surrendered loving other humans. We gave up on sincerely loving. We would rather care for cats and dogs, strangers on the internet we don't know, have never met, will never meet, because being close with someone we didn't make ourselves defeats our self-serving purposes. Humans are narcissists. Kill or be killed. America has become a land of sloth and greed. That's why Los Angeles burned down. Social media-mites preach, "God didn't burn Los Angeles down, climate change and global warming burned Los Angeles down!" Forgive me for saying but I think that dude with a blowtorch might have had something to do with it too. I think humans with their constant building and lack of caring about their surroundings might have had something to do with it also. I think when the governor instructs Los Angeles to conserve water during a drought but the richest cities in LA refused, welp that's where the water went. Regardless of if you believe in God or not a reckoning happened in Los Angeles. Of all the places I've been, the men in Los Angeles have sold their souls the most. Instead of a flood God sat back and said, "Go ahead Hellfire and Brimstone. Take 'em. I can't help them anymore. Look what they've chosen to become." Las Vegas could be next. Why? Because many Angelenos fled the ever-rising high cost of living and came here like I did. Only, I care what my surroundings look like.
Sincerity isn't found virtue-signaling.
Men in Las Vegas are quickly selling their souls starting with their self-respect. I don't think men know why they sexually harass or pester.
I was waiting at a bus stop the other day and some guy, white male in his 40's, literally ran across the street to sexually harass me. Then he followed me on the bus to sexually harass me further. His mother really did a number on him, I think. Or is that the work of his father. One of his parents turned him into a monster. Perhaps they both molested him. Anytime a man sexually harasses me or behaves sexually inappropriately I just assume he was molested by a family member.
Humans want to be Forever 21. Why this country doesn't just "carrousel" everyone on their thirtieth birthday like in Logan's Run is a mystery to me. "We care just at a comfortable distance with strangers we'll never meet." What a shame.
Speaking of Las Vegas, I live near a desert dune where homeless men camp. For those who don't know Las Vegas has an entire city of underground homeless people. Google it. They live in sewage tunnels. That's reason #1 why you don't drink the water here without a filtering system. Never mind the dirt and debris, I would rather drink the sand than the water that comes out of the faucets here. It's cleaner. The homeless men who live in the dunes scream at the morning hikers and dirt bikers but one in particular has a mantra scream of, "Get out of here!" He repeats it over and over. It's all I've ever heard him say. "Get out of here!" Every morning. "Get out of here!" In the afternoons he has no choice he has to put up with the Dune-walkers. There's too many of them. I feed my stray kitties three big bowls of hard food a day. I've wondered if the "Get out of here!" guy eats at least one of the bowls. I've seen the cats eat the hard food but three large bowls a day. That's a lot of cat food, yes?
For women experiencing an abundant of sexual harassment I've thought long and hard on this subject and concluded the reason God puts all these weird creepy men directly in our paths is, so we instantly lose all desire to be in a loving relationship with anyone other than Christ. That's the only reason I can think of behind it. Men sexually harassing women is abundant in all classes. The only thing God can do to fix these problems is... well, set the town on fire, I guess.
But I say unto you, that whoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart.
And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should parish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.
--Mathew 5:28,29
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